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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

short day today....

pe-handball... more handball game to come...good news! cox like tt no physical conditioning...

gp-yr's grp presented on poverty... the rest of the period i slept... gp's the only period i'll sleep w/o guilt... hee...

math and more math-boring.

after school stuck in school cox of the rain... boo! wanted to go home early to take a nap... then the rain din wanna stop... so went to lib to ~~study~~slack. until 5 plus then manage to "escape" from school. argh.

agirl'sfantasy:tobeshelteredfromtherain.it'smyfantasytoo.

Painting a PRETTY mess.

8:00 PM

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

quite late now... shd be studying for math... soon... after i blogged... hate to fail my test... but who in the right mind would wan to fail his or her test anyway... hm... got back two tests today... chem-pass... econs-fail... haix... not much of a good news... but anyway the econs teacher oso v slack lor... cox today mention dao mon some ppl suppose to hav remedial de but she NV turns up... then she was like saying shd hav called her on her extension... but then... she's always in the canteen during tt period of time la... -.-"'

din fall asleep in sch again! great sense of satisfaction cox two days consecutively nv fall aslp le... =)

went cine after sch wif my class ppl to catch "letters from iwo jima"... bloody i would say... no wonder nc16... haha.. speaking of nc16... some of our classmates got checked for ic when they wanted to enter the cinema... oops... hehe... but then me nv write out the name so i'm showing my respect le... hehe...

met up wif boyfriend after movie for dinner... er... actually me din eat cox i was quite full... quite bad of me... cox he travelled all the way to town to find me... sry sry... today see u like a bit sian sian de... hm... hope everything's alright... got anything mux tell me arh...

time to mug.

Painting a PRETTY mess.

9:23 PM

Monday, February 26, 2007

all my efforts... gone (or maybe not). first thing in the morn-physics SPA... thought i was quite well prepared... but then... duno y... or maybe cox too stress i could only come out of 3 errors outta 4... the last one anyhow write... then my values got one the uncertainty is 100%... lol... then hear ppl's ans all 2dp de... but mine only 1dp... boo! but me got check lei... how come still like tt... the same given data the ans shdnt differ so much de ma... haix... but then.. gone liao... nvm... a bit upset.. a bit not upset... cox i will NEVER noe my SPA results in my whole life... (tt was wat ran thru my mind when i was a little panicky at trying to squeeze some errors out...) then still got the written paper ma... most prob if i dun do well i'll think is i din study my content well de lor... not cox my SPA drag me down or anything...

anyway... other than tt... hm... today i managed to stay awake!!! haha... din fall asleep at all... not even @ econs lecture(which has the most power to put me to sleep)... hee... shall continue this way... =)

captain's ball after sch wif 07s24... din play cox this morn was rushing then couldnt find my pe shorts... lol... the battle b/w s24... think 06 did better.. hehe... event though i mux admit 07 ppl are quite good oso... maybe cox we tgt for longer period of time then got the mo4 qi4... hehe... bet the happiest person is gerald liao.. cox he achieved his motive... hehe...

am still using boyfriend's hp... today ppl see me use the phone first thing they ask "found ur hp arh?" how i wish it's true... but no... it's not mine... then many ppl were like saying boyfriend v nice to lend me his phone... cox everyone noes how much i miss my phone... i forced him to lend me his phone... i did not force him to lend me his phone... ey... me oso not sure... hehe...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

9:58 PM

Sunday, February 25, 2007

today went out to study!!! yes... study! haha... for the first time of the yr i went out to study on a weekend... haha... miracle? lol... credit goes to boyfriend! haha... cox he today free so pei me go study... he noe me tml got SPA so we din jux studied...

went to mac! my fav study place... cox like i said.. lib has always been the last place i'll wanna visit... and the atmosphere in the lib... a bit stress... a bit too quiet for me... went to limbang mac... cox there little ppl... but like everyone would noe... singapore is V small... so was caught studying there by someone's mom... caught by 2 other maugham OGL cox they also came to study there too... but they not tgt de... both wif their own fren... so i was actually quite paiseh... hee...

so studied phy... for tml's SPA... but i realise i forgot to bring foolscape! lol... so blur... only manage to dig out one piece... cox ms tan say mux practice re-do... so i only re-do one... er... then the rest of the time i jux read all the sources of errors... then after tt sian liao change to read chem... entropy...

saw a lot of little children in mac... v cute!! haha... got one try to trick his father... he put his mcflurry spoon in front of his father like wan to feed him but when the father reach out he'll take back the spoon... V cute lor... the boy and his action... hehe...

then for self-entertainment i drew on boyfriend's hand! haha... V messy. took a pic but he dun let me upload! haha... i think half of his arm all covered by my drawing... hehe...

weet~! boyfriend's lending me his 5300 till the nxt time we meet! hehe... miss using tt phone... thanks!!! =)

mus use this chance to take more pic to upload...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

10:36 PM

Saturday, February 24, 2007

i love my single eyelid! lol... maybe cox i prefer to hav both single rather than one double one single... duno why these few weeks my left eye always got double eyelid... then duno how to get rid oso... was thinking of making the other one duble oso but cannot succeed... actually i quite envy those wif double eyelid... v nice... then put eye makeup even more chio...

hmm... today stayed at home... sort of ps-ed my classmate... cox today they went house visiting again... sry ppl... jux felt like staying home... somehow... bonded wif my bro a little... =)

dined out wif my family... we always do tt on the 7th day of new yr... ate yu sheng like any other yr... starting to like it more and more... hehe... i had a chance to help in choosing other dish! hehe... usually is either my parents decide or i choose de they dun like... hm... anyway.. realise all the new yr dish they like to put mushroom inside... the black black kind... er... dun really noe the eng name for it... hehe...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

9:57 PM

Friday, February 23, 2007

TIRED!(probably cox i slept @ 2 ytd) tt's all i hav to say for today... slept through the day... literally. ppl beside me keep having to wake me up... so sry... but i jux couldnt keep awake... did try v hard at times... especially at math... cox i like totally lost at vectors.. am still stuck at complex no. when ppl oready at vectors part II... lol...

today suppose to be a short day la... but then got xtra phy and chem lesson so drag till 3 then end... maybe tt caused me to be sian diao a bit... then somewhere in my sub-conscious tells me tt i dun hav enuff energy to keep awake tt's y at times i jux let myself sleep... lol... contradicting? but i did try to stay awake... think is selective de... as in... maybe... the subj determines the amt of effort to keep myself awake... hm... confusing? lol...

anyway my tired-ness is not the only thing tt cause me to be so inactive today... i'm oso rather troubled by my second-last-finger on my left hand... cant straighten it... straighten liao will hav this intensive pain... ouch! occurs to me once in a while... maybe few month once... or maybe once a yr... not v often will happen de so i oso dun really bother to see a doc bout it... think a fews days jiu hao le... but sometimes is maybe hao le but i duno cox the pain gives me fear to try to straighten it to see if it's ok.... (am able to blog now cox i dun use my second-last-finger while typing... aint pro at typing-- sounds familiar think a few mths back i had this encounter... my finger has been like this since young... dun really wanna get use to it though... serious it's VERY painful)

so i slept after i got home and FORCED myself outta bed at ard 9... after numerous attempts by my sis to wake me up... thanks girl... dun wan history to repeat itself... dun wan waste my fri nite... even if it means i wun do any homework... hehe...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

10:30 PM

Thursday, February 22, 2007

second day in sch after cny... LOOONG day... ~~dread~~... visit mrs wee's house after sch! that's not the only thing tt happened today... we oso had yu sheng during our 2hr break... treat from mr lim... thanks to both teacher... really enjoyed myself today...

woke up at 4+ today to study! lol... mux be the fear of failing... cox it's like once in a million i'll manage to wake up so early de lor... hm... so i studied the last bit of chem which i din manage to cover the day b4... and did phy too... then first thing in the morn-chem test! lol... but oso good... dun hav to be troubled by it the rest of the day...

then the day went on... boring lesson...

2hr break @ 1230... lao4 yu2 sheng1 in the canteen... quite an experience... though the whole thing quite short then the girls jiu went outta sch liao...

last lesson of the day-pe... today quite tiring cox quite a lot of running then hafta run on field oso... dun think running on the field is easy k... cox it's not... though can cheat a bit cox the circumference is smaller than the track but it's more tiring...

proceed to mrs wee's house after tt though we were quite late due to some delay... mrs wee has two cute boy... age 3 and 5.... v cute lor... but i think we too high liao... or maybe cox too many ppl there(20 of us went) one of the boy(or both) would tell us to keep quiet at times... lol... but i think out of the many houses we visited think this is the most fun liao... xz performed magic trick... yr and wr played piano... gerald sang... took videos and photos(i wan a phone wif cam too!) but think still haven upload...

it's been a long day... reach home quite late cox met up wif boyfriend for a while... =)

today:i'm 50.0kg!!! argh... time to go on diet...

shut me up for i noe i'm too noisy

Painting a PRETTY mess.

11:41 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

tired tired tired... totally not in the mood to go back to sch especially after ytd... (realise i'm the last to blog bout it... lol...)

morning woke up early... 7.20... see so early go back slp again.... 7.40 wake up again... then slp again... the nxt thing i noe... my phone was vibrating... lol... boyfriend called to wake me up...(i'm suppose to wake up and call him @ 8) oops... so was late (as usual) for breakfast... then went meet up wif the rest @ je...

first stop: mr lim's house.... sry to disturb early in the morn... but was quite an eye-opener for us i guess cox teacher got quite a lot of collection... some of which is not quite expected... do u believe u'll see hamtaro and wwe stuff in the room of a single owner? lol...

nxt we migrate to xz house... watched tt ella's lasted drama... of course no time to finish all la... watch a few disc nia... but the show not bad... if got time me wan borrow to watch... but march hol gone for studying common test liao... boo! anyway.... back to being at xz house... her father v good... help us bbq food then his uncle i think oso made pizza for us to eat...

after which went wr's house... her family all v sociable and friendly...played back jack... lost $2... =X but then is my money la!!! (everyone keep telling boyfriend tt i lose money...) play play play then jiu move on liao...

last stop:gerald's house... played a bit of black jack again... lost another $2...lol... but it's still my money!!! after tt play luck game... whoever picks the ace in the deck mux drink a cup of water... gerald v enthu lor... still say wan put chilli put soya sauce in the water... plain water oready v chan liao lor... especially when u tio 3 times...(like me... -.-''') but i'm not the worst.. cox oso got jh tio 3 glasses and leo tio 4! lol... the rest din tio except gerald and xz one glass each.. they so lucky! sian... this yr bad for snake... that's y...

went temple at nite wif my parents to pray... hope everything will be fine for me... though i see some bad signs... shall not say wat cox the bad things shall be forgotten! i noe this is a tough yr but i believe i can survive!

new yr has nv been the same...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

5:40 PM

Sunday, February 18, 2007

i'm here to blog again! haha... am back so early even though i left my house v late... ard 2-3pm... lol... now is jux 9 pm... lol... can see that my cny is quite boring... am really losing the mood... so i thought tt i'll be fun... for once tt i'll get to visit other ppl's house... as in non-relative de... so i hope we'll get to go to mr lim's house! hehe... (faster organise!) or maybe biwei's house oso... hm... din really get to mingle much wif my relative... most of the time i'll jux find a spot to settle myself and see time past... lol... really fins myself out of touch wif my relative... as in... got one pregnant le... got one getting married in june and my bro's gg to be the flower boy... all this i dun noe!!! omg... sian... lol... dun blame me for not keeping myself updated but it's really the thing tt we dun meet up other than cny... tt's y... so even if they call to spread the news i oso wun noe... cox my mom always dun tell me de la... she din even tell me when she was having my bro!!! omg... then there was this period of time when me and my sis keep guessing and guessing then is like after many months when the tummy starts to grow then we finally noe the truth one lor... sian... how come good news oso dun wan tell me? boo!

Painting a PRETTY mess.

8:58 PM

poof! today's CHINESE NEW YEAR! haha... now's 11.18 but i'm still @ home.. lol... it's getting later and later each yr... i mean the house visiting... i rmb when i was young... like ard 7 yrs old... my whole family would be up by 6 and would leave house ard 7... lol... but now... you-noe-wat... ain't really looking forward to house visiting... honestly... cox i hardly noe them.. my relatives are those see-once-in-a-yr kind... so usually when ppl tok about their cousins i get so envious of them... haix... make mysef sound so pathetic on the first day of new yr... (cheer up girl!) hmm...

ytd... my birhtday! haha... received many msg but some replied wif "hu are u arh? cox me lost my phone and all contacts gone" so paiseh la... at least tt's wat i feel... cox will sort of make ppl feel like "hello? hav u forgotten hu i am? wat sort of fren are u?" haha... ok... actually not so bad... cox i din lose their contact no. on purpose... so maybe not so bad oso.. haha... but still mux thank all those who wished me happy birthday!

my birthday... was spent in the house! the whole day... haix... cny eve lor... everyone oso v busy... where will hav time to go out... but then... still ok la.. not v sad cox i noe i'm not forgottened! hehe... and i made boyfriend sang me a birhthday song! hehe... v happie liao.. thanks boy... =)

ytd i drew up my study plan for the common test... hm... my plan's starting only on the 1st of march.. a bit too late? think so... but i dun really wanna start too early cox there'll still be losta tutorials to do then if i dun stick to my plan... i'll jux go "aiya... i din follow the plan ytd... today dun follow oso wun be much of a diff" somemore if one is not followed the rest would be affected as in u'll hav to squeeze time to make up for the lost one... so... i pray hard tt i'll be disciplined and stick to my plan! study hard! mug! (i realise i'm more of a mugger than a thinker...)

it's my simple life.

Painting a PRETTY mess.

11:16 AM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

yeah~! spent some time to change my blogskin... hehe.... actually wanted to change for some time liao... but then cox couldnt find nice ones to change... got nice one oso other ppl use liao... anyway the idea of changing blogskin popped up the day i realise s21 oso using the same blogskin as me... lol...

today mux hav been a lucky day for me cox i found a skin tt i like.... maybe it marks a good start for me... no more missing of stuff (bracelet and all)... no more broken stuff (anklet and all)... no more ~~losing~~of stuff(handphone!!!)-it was stolen la... partly mine and partly not my fault...

it's the start of my adulthood... and the end of the yr of dog... weet~! it's a new start for ME!!! happie...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

2:25 PM

got the picx le... not much i realise... haha... cox the rest he dun to gimme! lol...

me and yq! know her since pri 1...!!! love her... =)

some of the swiss girls! (from left) biwei.me.yongqi.shiwei.

in the hall...

boyfriend and me!!! haha... we were at ps...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

11:42 AM

ahhh...!!! wasted the last of my 17 yrs of age sleeping! omg... i cant believe i slept from ytd evening till today morn!!! missed out so much la... thanks to all those who wished me happie birthday!!! first prize goes to... yongqi! haha... but technically shd be boyfriend de.... cox yq was 4sec b4 midnite... lol... thankx to all again...

hm... ytd... started off bad... me attitude!!! ahh.... sry... sry... to all affected... especially boyfriend... (the fact tt i wrote openly bout it shows tt i'm really guilty bout it... pls forgive me...)
anyway... then sch... tried to finish my chem... din really give in much participation in the luo-hei thing... din eat much oso... think only one mouthful... then jiu concert... nth much to say... can only comment tt it din bring much cny spirit to us...

then went out wif boyfriend!!! hehe... ate fish and co. at beside park mall there!!! loved the food... i love fish & co. !!! we wanted to go play the street bball machine at arcade but it was always occupied... hm... ytd a lot of ppl at pc bunk and the arcade there lor... mux be cox everyone end early... then ppl go chiong game... then we went play pool! waha... me so noob... mux hav bore boyfriend to death... oops... haha... mux go train secretly liao... haha...

took quite a number of photos... but all in boyfriend's phone... (i wan a new phone!!! argh...) suppose to get from him online ytd but me went to slp la! sadded... and to think tt i actually slept from evening till morn... i'm so pig... lol... usually me evening slp in the evening ard nite or midnite will wake up de... but ytd din... boo! or maybe i'm jux too tired... cox the day b4 slept for and hr and a half nia... hehe...

anyway... today i'm 18 liao!!! haha... can do many many things le... weet!

i wish... i wish....

Painting a PRETTY mess.

9:27 AM

Thursday, February 15, 2007

happy happy day for me!!! weet~! thanks everyone in 06s24!!! cox today they gave me an early birthday celebration!!! really very touched! yup... love u all... thankx a million... really... cox it's been a LONG time since i last blew birthday candles... my parents dun buy cakes for me... neither did i hav any during my sec sch yrs... but still i loved swiss lots... and the ppl in there... (p.s. yinling i saw ur msg on the friend-a-thon board dedicated to 4e2'05!!!) but i'm not v pathetic la... cox celebrations wif the presence of a birthday cake is more common in JC... i dun rmb many ppl had bdae cake in swiss either... quite rare... hm... anyway... thankx for the present ya... i really like it... it's a red top from topshop! nice... and the girls oso bought something extra... hehe... shall not say out... but thanks girls... really...

so the day was like quite norm... the girls put my present under my table but i din realise! lol... it was until break tt they hint to me to look under my desk... lol... then the cake came in during the second cake... mr lim was present too! really v touched... they class sang bdae song... and they even twisted the lyrics and used boyfriend's name in place of happy birhday... lol... so cute of them but really made me face red... too bad boyfriend not present... or maybe i shd be glad... hu noe's wat my cheeky classmates hav in their mind to prank on me... haha...

tml cny celebration... wonder if our yu sheng would be edible... lol... but it's indeed a creative idea... shall not leak the content... but i cant help but i really hav to apologise to all my fellow swiss... sry i wun be wearing my swiss uniform... blouse too short skirt too tight... all wear since sec one de la... now grow liao... then somemore me the only swiss in class and my class peeps would be wearing class tee... obviously i'll be super outstanding... i can sense the disappointment but i'm really sry... am in a difficult spot...

i din grow fat! despite the fact tt i went for sushi buffet on tue... seriously i would y my weight din change at all for nearly a month liao... not even 0.1 kg la... hm... but it's good... like tt i'll be still a distance away from 50kg and my BMI's still 17.999... hehe... not yet 18...

i feel so blessed... today's yet another happy day for me...
p.s.wish u were here...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

7:55 PM

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

roses and heart shape balloons everywhere... valentine's day has nv been so sweet for me... *grins*

school was quite terrible for me today... not because i was hoping tt school would end fast so tt i can go out... but cox me not feeling well since after pe even until i leave sch... stomachache... lesson was as per norm... nth interesting happen... jux tt i'm reminded of my unfinished assignments... haix...oh ya me got pass my math! haha... happie... but not contented... i noe i can do better... definitely... the fear of the common test is creeping up... it's inching closer and knowing tt common test includes j1 topics... it means tt i'll really hav to put in more time for study liao...

then after sch met up wif boyfriend! hehe... went town...ate pastamania(!!!)... watched our FIRST movie tgt... really... haha... though we've been tgt for quite some time le... but then... it's always the case where we dun really hav enuff time for a movie... wanted to watch movie tgt for quite some time le.. finally today got the chance... watched "ghost rider" today sneak preview... hehe... loved the movie...

i'm a happy girl...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

7:50 PM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

yet another day slacked away... cant really recall wat i did for today... jux now tt i miss bluetooth-ing photos and picx... miss taking photo wif my can... miss listening to the songs in my phone... cox some is bluetooth from ppl de so even my com oso dun hav... sadded...

went to eat suki wif my class today... boyfriend went too... saw belinda and her boyfriend too... so qiao... she say she coming to pj on fri... hopefully she'll be able to make it... like tt sure v fun... cox i oso made boyfriend come on fri... hehe... oops... sound abit like i force him de... but then... haha... cox he too pig liao. everyday sleep until v late so if wan him join us mux do more than ask him to come.. hehe... =)

Painting a PRETTY mess.

9:14 PM

first day w/o phone... life's hard! even worse when u dun wear a watch and has the habit of taking out my phone to check for time and at the same time for sms... see other ppl got phone v envious... cox me no phone use... thankx wr for lending me her phone to sms... then my life's back to w/o music... boring... and i can hardly keep my mind of thinking bout my hp!!! haix... sadded... i waited for so long b4 i hav a proper phone tt can take picx one lor... haix... my picx gone... some nv upload to com... dumb me...

ytd stay till 2 plus to study for econs... actually i jux read thru... finish only 2/3 of wat is tested and read the remaining this morn... really could get nth inside... and mux be cox lack of slp... i actually fell aslp during the test! first time in histiry me fell asleep during test la... omg... cant believe it... hm... i think i slept for ard 3 hr nia... cox oso woke up early as in unintentional de... then couldnt get back to slp... tossed and turn in bed till it was time to wake up...

mon blues? duno why i always hav serious flu on mon... totally a spoiler way to start my week... anyway my flu has been on for some time le... nv totally recover... sianx... jux tt mon morn would be v serious tt kind until got the feeling tt i nid to sign out and rest! but still, hav to saty on cox got two test today...

econs mention le... phy... i think quite ok... norm standard...

no tears today! =) finally.

Painting a PRETTY mess.

12:01 AM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

if tml i fail my testS i'll noe why... totally not in the mood for study....cant focus either...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

11:04 PM

PLS DO NOT BE STUNNED BY MY CAPS... COX I'M TOTALLY IN A BAD MOOD NOW!

WHY? COX MY PHONE GOT STOLEN @ BUGIS STREET!

YES. STOLEN. I DIN LOSE IT COX I DIN USE IT FOR QUITE A LONG TIME AND IT WAS LYING IN MY BAG'S SIDE POCKET ALL THE WHILE UNTIL SOMEONE CAME ALONG AND "TOOK" IT AWAY...

ARGH!!!

TOTALLY SPOILED MY DAY AND MADE ME REAL SAD... COX THERE'S A LOT OF THING INSIDE THE PHONE AND I BOUGHT IT WIF MY OWN MONEY! USED MY PAY DURING THE HOLS WORK TO BUY IT DE!!!

SPEAKING OF OWN MONEY... WAT WAS MADE WORST WAS MY MOM! SHE TOTALLY DIN CARED FOR MY FEELINGS AND SCOLDED ME V BADLY.... AND GUESS WAT SHE SAID "I TELL U HONESTLY... IF THE PHONE WASNT PAID BY U... I'LL KILL U...." SHE'S TOTALLY NOT SYPATHETIC... SHE KEEP SCOLDING ME BOUT NOT LOOKING AFTER MY PHONE... I ADMIT IT WAS MY CARELESS THAT CAUSED THIS TRAGEDY... BUT HOW CAN SHE RUB SALT ON MY WOUND? FROM HER TONE... I CAN HEAR TT I WUN BE ABLE TO GET A NEW PHONE...

AND I'M A PERSON WHO CANNOT LIVE W/O PHONE!!!

PROVEN BY MY OVER $100 DOLLAR BILL EACH MONTH... I'M TOTALLY DEPENDENT ON MY PHONE TOO... EVERY MORN IT WAKES ME UP... I DO NOT HAV ANY WORKING ALARM CLOCKS IN MY ROOM... AND PLS DUN BUY ME AN ALARM CLOCK FOR MY BIRHTDAY IF ANYONE IS THINKING OF TT... COX NONE OF MY ALARM CLOCK FUNCTIONS WELL FOR A LONG TIME...AND I'M EASILY IRRITATED BY THE SOUND TT ALARM CLOCK MAKES... WHETHER IT'S THE TRADITIONAL RINGS OR THE MUSICAL ONES... I'LL RATHER HEAR MY PARENTS SCREAM AT ME IN THE MORN TO GET ME OUTTA BED...

DEPRESSED...

I REALLY LOVED MY PHONE A LOT A LOT...

LESSONS LEARNT:
1. ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF BELONGING AND NV PUT ANYTHING IN SIDE POCKET... ZIP THEM IN THE MAIN POCKET.... ESPECIALLY TRUE WHEN U'RE AT BUGIS STREET...
2. NV HANG ANYTHING ON UR HANDPHONE... COX IT MAKES THE "FISHING" OF UR HANDPHONE EVEN EASIER...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

10:35 PM

Saturday, February 10, 2007

woke up ard 10.30 today... ytd oso slpt at ard 10.30... lol... 12hrs... but then not totally fully charged cox ytd dreamt... some bad dream... so i din get a peaceful 12 hrs slp... and i realise... oops! ytd too early sleep liao... cox i tot ytd at midnite suppose to hav mass class convo... oops... cox hafta wait till xz and jh come back from work... but i totally forgot bout it and went to sleep early... i was too tired... did some clearing... anyway i think the two of them ended v late anyway... cox was hoping i'll receive a msg from him... but it came in too late... i slept liao... but wif a little satisfaction cox now my table more spacious le... hehe.... still got my shelves to be cleared... MUX get them done today if not tml mom wun be happy bout me gg out... finally can go out liao... so looking forward to tml... cox today i'm at home... (when i'm not suppose to? stop reminding myself le! argh.... jux makes me more sad...) wonder wat will happen after tml... cox my mom's allowing me go out tml only cox i'm gg to buy my cny clothes which is a MUX and cox i've done some clearing.... haix... reminds me of the sentosa thing again... most prob there wun be any outing for now i think... cox our class not performing well and tests are coming up... mon we're gg to hav our first lecture testS for the yr... testS... yes testS cox got phy and econs!... haix... dun really noe my macro stuff well... not v optimistic bout it...

ytd assembly vp gave us a long talk... dun really rmb most of the stuff cox i dun really think those would really make an impact on me... serious... the only thing i rmb is about forming study groups and stuff... then i recalled last yr during nite study... lol... cox me and my swiss frens always end up talking more than studying... lol... then me always kena say ps by my class de... oops... hehe...

i'm tired of crying everyday(including today...i cried)... now i'm numb... time will tear us apart... eventually...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

12:01 PM

Friday, February 09, 2007

boo! my internet connection's been running slow recently... duno y... then the connection not stable oso... can see from my msn... keep signing in and out... then sometimes the web cannot show oso... argh...

anyway... tt's nth important... hm... today decorated our class noticeboard a bit more... hope can finish in time... which is by mon... seriously i think our deco not bad... but then... where's the cny mood? lol...

today's the result of 'o' lvl results... wonder how swiss did... this yr band 2 or band 3? hm... wonder wonder... wonder how og17 did... hope to hear good news from them... speaking of og reminds me of the cny celebration nxt week... initial plan is j1 go into their og de... then today they brief ogls... after tt the j1 ct say wan go in class so the plan was called off... oh well... tt means i'll be wif my s24 (!!!)... hehe... the girls say they gg to tie the same hairstyle... of course not the norm ponytail la... and nope... we dun go for 2 ponytails either... is er... plaited from top down in the middle de... tt'll be so cool... hehe... cny in a special way... but then... val how? hm... got ppl suggest she style like guys... lol... a bit unfair to her lor... well think of a way... hopefully... fake hair? oops.. me lame... sry...

weekend's here again... tml sat... suppose to go out de... in the end nv... kinda disappointed cox was really looking forward to it... totally... but then... i oso duno y liao... i'm so confused myself...

i was once taught the word-forever... but then i realise it dun exist....
tears continued to flow...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

8:25 PM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

"6000-year-old embrace" that's one of the headline of one of the article of The Straits Times on the coverpage... two skeleton believed to be of a male and a female was found... and they were in the posture of a hug... how sweet... they've hugged and companied each other for wat they believed to have been some 5000-6000 years...

that's probably the only thing i rmb bout the whole set of newspaper i've read today... still cant get used to the reading life... ytd din read oso... oops... inconsistent... i tend to get bored towards the end especially after finish reading a few long articles... then i'll skip and eventually poof! i'm done... lol... but it oready took me a long time la... now i'm only in my room after 9... last time ard 7-8 jiu shut myself in the room liao... i'm still living the no-tv-for-me life... hehe...

today long day... had interval runs during pe... din feel well after tt... keep feeling giddy... argh... mux be today i eat too little liao... oops... but at least i manage to come in b4 the 2.15mins target for every round... satisfied... =)

Painting a PRETTY mess.

9:31 PM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

i cried so hard... yet u were nowhere to be found...

am i too emo?

Painting a PRETTY mess.

11:47 PM

cant help but i'm here to blog... hehe... now actually quite late le... shd be doing my homework now... oh well... the mood's not there yet... today was our math test... i did study for it... or at least i felt tt i did... but then somehow i wasnt able to give full solution to 2 out of 3 of the question... after cracking my brain... i thought to myself "am i gg to fail my test again?" i desperately told myself i dun wanna fail! argh... but then... on the brighter side... i've always learnt tt math is more about the methods and working rather than the final ans... so maybe i wun fail afterall! (stay positive!)

today our chem teacher told us to wrote our feedback bout his lessons... wonder how tml's lesson wif him will be... cox got positive and negative feedbacks written to him... i think maybe more -ve de? cox these few days he v fierce to us... sudden twist of attitude...

after sch went to buy cny deco wif haihui and wr.. got one stall i think con ppl one lor... cox we hafta decide among the many variety and keeping to the budget... we sort of asked a few times the prices of the decos... then they keep changing price de lor... jux when we tot we got everything in hand liao.. when we wan go pay we got a shock... the price was diff from wat we were told... haix... then hav to change the items again... a bit frustrated... but then can do nth to it cox out of the few stalls selling cny deco tt one the deco nicest le... and it's the only one selling the deco will move one... as in oscillate back and forth... so cute! we've been eye-ing to buy those kind of deco since tt day we were in town to buy wr's present... we saw it in a shop and thought it was so very cute... after tt went to jp to buy stuff... hehe... me so very fickle-minded... walked the whole jp b4 i made up my mind... haihui was very fast to make decision to wat she wanted to buy... but me not much experience ma... haha... tt's y... thanks for the opinions i got from both of them... really helped me a lot... =)

Painting a PRETTY mess.

9:20 PM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

i think my chem teacher is really v disappointed bout our class... today he scolded our class alot... he keep emphasising that there's no pt staying on in jc if we're not gg to score well... and things like we shdnt jux be happy that we can be promoted but rather we shd aim hard to be "promoted" to uni... v fierce arh... but then... he din frighten me... nope.. instead i feel a little attitute inside me... din say anything but i wanna say it now... "pls stop encouraging ppl to go poly le! argh... we're totally settled into jc life and this is the way we wan it... whether good results or not..." serious i noe some may (may only) do badly for A lvl... ok... no way we're gg to do badly... er... nv reach expectations or did not score wat is ideal... but at this stage i believe everyone jux wans to give A lvls a shot... if not we would hav left for poly in last yr end... some did... they knew wat they wan and left... similiarly we noe wat we want here... i noe it's rite of him to scold us for doing badly... but the pt is... dun encourage us to leave jc at this stage... u can scold to motivate us to strive harder or put us into remedial class... but DUN mention poly le la...

haix... maybe some teacher would blog-hop and read my blog... er... nono... i shall not write the name of my teacher... a bit bad... (i shall go back to previous para and change...)... done... a bit lame... lol... but then... i happy can liao... hehe... =)

i started clearing my table... haha... ytd cleared a corner of it... oops.. haha... not even 1/4 but it's ok... at least it a new start... hehe... anyway my laptop oready occupy 1/3 of the table liao... as in wif the cables and modem and all tt's y my table oso not much to clear... hehe...

proud of my little achievement... easily contented... =D

till fri...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

4:58 PM

Monday, February 05, 2007

yet another week of sch has started... today lesson quite ok... except for the bad news that mr hou brought to us.... our class was ranked the lowest for the lastest chem test... but then... some of the class de data haven been keyed in la... so maybe we not the last... tt's how i'll console myself... but wat's the pt? i din pass my chem! argh... utterly disappointed in myself... this shdnt be happening to my chem de... chem is suppose to give me hope... as in chem is one of my better subj... haix... guess i really hav to wake up liao... better start mugging! cox nxt week got econs and phy test ON THE SAME DAY! double boo-ness... mux do well! if not cannot be SLO! i wanna participate in such stuff so that my JC life would not be mundane(er... did i use it correctly here?) use wrongly oso nvm ba... cox i noe my eng standard... today got back my first essay... din pass... but not much ppl pass either... this GP teacher of mine has HIGH expectations... really... but i'm working hard on my eng... ytd my newspaper finally came! lol... ard 2-3 months ago i said i wanted subscribe newspaper but the plan was put off until now cox hols i went to work then forgot bout it. i din hav time to read anyway... so i'm trying to cultivate my habit of reading... yes reading! haha... boyfriend would be shocked! cox library has always been the last place i'll wanna visit and he's such a bookworm... not as in mug mug mug tt kind but he reads reads reads ALOT... serious... maybe this would be ONE(and only) postive influence he has on me ba... haha... he always influence me the negative way... lol... i bet he'll kill me if he reads this... er... maybe i can try to lengthen my entry then he wun bother to read.... haha... er... but then... i think i shd go back to doing my homework now... today there's jux so much homework... if i dun do, tml wan dan...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

8:50 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

another weekend gone... oops.. i really cant help it but to idle my weekend away... ok... actually i din really idle my weekend away... i helped my mom wif something... for 2days... haix... finally the thing is done! but so are my weekends... gone... i really hav to admit but i din touch any homework this weekend! oops... bad me... every week i tell myself to change my attitude... every week the same thing happens to me... argh! better start some serious reflection b4 it's too late!!! argh...

Painting a PRETTY mess.

11:01 PM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

omg. i cant believe i actually din touch my com for 2 days! haix... today i almost cannot use my com again lor... but then... dun deprive me of something i wanna do le! argh... now my whole class's at sentosa havinf fun la... i'm the only one stuck at home... cox of my mom... she ban me from gg out on weekends liao! where got such thing de!!! me gg to 18 liao leh... haix... *shake head*

shall start blogging from thu... this is gg to be quite a long entry cox quite a lot of stuff happened these 2 days...

hmm.. thu... started to plan for the bdae cake for wr and qw secretly... tried collecting money which was hard cox cant let qw and wr noe.. initial plan was tt me and haihui go lot one after sch order de... then shun bian get something extra for qw...*evil smile*but then... my mum ask me go home straight after sch!!! argh... in the end haihui asked qw to go lot one wif her then bluff is buy for wr de so tt can make fun of her when qw see the present... hehe... it was quite a succuess... jux the part bout ordering the cake was quite a headache.. cox we din wan qw to noe got cake ma... so since i cant go and qw's wif haihui... so turn out xz and jh go lot one buy... suppose to coordinate to avoid qw and haihui clashing into xz and jh de... but too bad... the first thing when the guys stepped into lot one was to see qw and haihui... so they carried out another plan... they call it the mission impossible... lol.. shdnt talk more into it... anyway... when all these things were gg on at lot one... i was on my way home liao... felt quite sad having to go home ASAP... but then lucky boyfriend was changed to morn shift tt day so he was able to send me home! hehe... so qiao...

when i got home... haix... nth really VERY important de... my mom jux wanted me to help her do something... which i'm not gg to say wat... family secret.... and i started doing until 10 plus... tired liao so i went slp... sianx...

fri... celebrated qw and wr's bdae... put their present in their lockers and bluff them to open locker after morn assembly.. fri is always a short day... one lec one tutorial assembly ct. end... lol... spend ct period decorating the noticboards... almost done!!! then we stayed back to celebrate qw and wr's bdae... i think qw a bit shock we also helping her to celebrate her bdae... lol... cox ytd was wr's bdae and qw bdae is actually tml... so we sang bdae song and they played wif the cream a little... lol... after tt went out wif boyfriend b4 coming back to sch for bbq-cum-campfire... boyfriend stayed in sch too! wait for me... hehe... but then ltr on her went to join gerald's og wif jh which was beside mine nia! hehe... the bbq pit is put on the floor de... no table for us... lol... ltr part of the bbq they played wif charcoal! ppl started running ard wif their hands dirtied wif charcoal and started chasing other ppl... i kena a bit... but i screamed a lot... haha... i oso drew on a few ppl's face... oops... hehe... had fun!! then boyfriend send me home again! hehe... cox my mum din noe wat time the thing in sch ended so we dragged a bit... hehe... went home quite late... hehe... but all in all... i really enjoyed the day... from morn till nite... =)

but today... i'm stuck wif helping my mom doing something again! argh...

ytd was my first... *grins*

Painting a PRETTY mess.

3:16 PM